went to the ting tings show on monday at the varsity theater. gabe graciously enough got me on the ting tings list for the sold out show. oh how i love that man! luckily mike minehart snuck his way in as well to accompany me. going alone to a show is alright, but it is much better to have a familiar face. i mainly went to see zach's band solid gold play. unfortunately the ting tings demanded that they play as a three piece instead of their normal five piece. how self-righteous is that. hm. pretty pathetic. but solid gold did a great job regardless. i also saw jason and liz and the show. good run-ins.
this week i have been emotionally and mentally drained. i just want to curl up on my bed at the end of the day and watch a movie. i do not have energy to call people, care much at all, or think about anything. there are many situations that are all up in my headspace, and i cannot sort them out. instead, i shut down. so that is where i currently am. maybe by the weekend i will be ready to go again. i have just lost faith and respect in many individuals, and those who i still have it for i am concerned for.
on another issue, i have recently become aware of the hurt of a good friend. and i absolutely understand the frustration that this person has. a part of me reaches out, but a part of me has to look out for my own interests, as no one (except heather) has steadily looked out for mine for the past years. i have been in the same situation. isolated. and the only advice i can give is, stick it out. i know you know this. but i am taking what i can, while i can, because no one gave me anything at all before. it is a lonely place to be, and although i wish it on no one, it will pass and i must do what i can in the meantime. regardless, i gotcho' back. and i am sorry.
'tis all.
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