take note: perhaps "fuck off" is too kind.

i have come to the conclusion, with the help of a talk with heather dagger, that i am over working for the hearts of people who do not appreciate the effort. done. i spend too much time agonizing and worrying about whether or not someone is receiving my affections and returning them. again and again the mantra of the backbone gang comes to mind:

if you like someone, you like someone.

there is no justification for spending so much time and care over people who refuse to return the same. of course new people and situations arise where one must put forth initial effort. but for those who have been treated to these courtesies for years, no more.