goals:

• find a job i at least mildly enjoy that pays the bills.
• move into a studio apartment (i am low maintenance).
• be nicer to people, especially friends. i can be a bully. i can be negative. i am going to try to stop that. i hate that about myself.
  
• be less critical, especially to family and friends.
• make an effort to hang out with friends more often and keep my plans.
• write more, but without pressure. i will write when i want to. when i am inspired. one day i may change the world with what i say, but i shouldn't have to force it.
  
• read more. instead of surfing "on demand" i will open the nearest book and settle down with it.
• visit my friends' kids more. those are the important hang outs. those are the important people. they are new and they need all of the love and support that the world can give them.
• try to spend less time on social networks. i want the real world. this may take some time, as pressing the refresh button on facebook and twitter is as addictive as diet coke.
• try to eat better, or in smaller portions. i inhale food like it is going out of style. i probably should stop eating my boredom.
• be nice to myself.

this is the beginning.