Total Devastation.

Hawaii Continued (a.k.a. My Man is Wonderful).

Our View:

Our Room:Justin was going to go walking, so I made him take pictures...I want to live in this tree. Or at least swing from it. Outside our hotel.After seeing Iron Man 2, I wanted JP to climb inside of it and pose. He didn't.

Our breakfast joint. View of the ocean. Open air. Trees in the middle.

My beach time.

I was only out for about 40 minutes...

But man was I sunburnt that night.

Luckily Justin took care of me until I went to the doctor once I got home.

And thanks to my sister for driving me there, and using up the extra film in my camera.

They gave me a steroid shot for the swelling and pain meds.

Supermodels, out.

This is not a test.

We are in Hawaii!

After roughly ten hours of travel, we made it securely to O'ahu.

Yesterday we walked eight to ten miles. Our destinations?

1) Starbucks (duh).

2) Hale (delicious microbiotic food).

3) Iron Man 2 (great for a sequel, but not as good as the first. My favorite parts were the Pepper/Natalie/Tony parts).

4) Back to the hotel.

If anyone says we didn't see all there is to see in Waikiki, they are WRONG.

My legs hurt.

This morning we ate breakfast, and are currently on computers connected to the continental United States and otherwise.

Here is one of the views from our hotel:
More later.

And now! For your viewing pleasure! The latest in modern technology and laser beams! What I spent the first wee hours of my 25th birthday doing!

TOTAL DEVASTATION - Farewell Continental

I am on the pretty camera side at the end with the mad laser pointing skills. Holla!

Quick and Dirty.

Last, last, last weekend:

• Went to my aunt's cabin with my aunt, mother, and cousin (Morgan). We almost died in a storm driving up to the cabin. We shopped a lot. Watched several movies. And majorly relaxed.

That following week/end:

• Justin came home. A lot of TV shows and movies (Hal Hartley and Six Feet Under deliciousness).Went to see Somerset with the likes of Justin, Tommy, Bruce, Brittany, and Josh Cain.
  
• Went to Matt's birthday dinner @ Famous Dave's in uptown. Lovely times.
• Went to see BLNX with the likes of Justin, Shel, Ben, Tommy, Kari, Jim, Jared, etc... Tommy and I danced our little strobe light hearts out.

This week/end:

• Watched a lot of Six Feet Under (love) and Weeds (all of season one within 12 hours. It's alright).
• Had to work a work picnic on Saturday. Bleh.
• I am not speaking unless spoken to, because no one really listens or wants to solve it anyway. I exist. I suppose ghosting it is good enough for this place.

Sorry I do not have the energy to write more. I just don't right now. Saying more would say too much. And at current, I do not have the heart to give any more of heart away.

In other news, this coming week:

• Conan (probably)!
• Getting hair done (hoorah!).
• HAWAII!!!

Yes. I said Hawaii. A long weekend in the far-away galaxy of lovely weather and relaxation. Who is excited? Oh. This girl is excited. I cannot wait to lie around all day, eat, and read.

She did as she felt, and she felt a great deal.

Sometimes you’ve got to be able to listen to yourself and be okay with no one else understanding.

"I respect and admire you." "Is that love?" "No, that's respect and admiration."

Trust:
Oh Adrienne Shelly, how I love you.

Justin is obsessed with Hal Hartley movies, with their stylized acting but so-very-honest dialogue. I immediately fell in love with this gem a few seconds after he put it on.

The writing is SO. GOOD. Although the stylized acting seems very on the surface, generalized, and flat--it actually enhances the movies that much more.

The characters become "types" of people that you surely know, and because their words perfectly reflect the things we would or would want to say in situations. You also believe their "act" because you know they are giving all of the credit to those words vs. the acting, the content vs. the pretend emotion in front of the content that the actors could convince or could ruin for you.

Get it? If you don't, you just have to watch to understand.

On a bigger note... I want Adrienne Shelly's face. R.I.P., pretty lady.


Antichrist:Was really excited to see this movie. I knew it was going to be shocking, bizarre, arty, and so when we found it on Netflix for free, I was ecstatic.

Uh.

Disturbing.

I really liked the shamelessness of the movie. It didn't apologize for approaching a lot of "unthinkable" topics (which I will not go into for those who have not seen it yet). At the same time, I didn't feel like this film's only point was to gratuitously shock people. Did it make complete sense all the time? No. Did it have an interesting perspective, with deeper meanings and imagery? Yes.

I can dig that.

There was a really ridiculous part with a bloody fox.

However I really liked eerie-ness of the baby's feet thing (random detail that made me ill thinking about it), the slow demise of "she" into insanity (as shown in the journals), and how the film journeyed to the out-most scary territory of what a human is capable of.

I recommend this. It will haunt you for days.

Guilt.

As you may or may not know, I have a guilt complex. I always have. I feel guilty and worried over the tiniest things I do or do not do. The best thing I have learned this week is in regard to coping with guilt.

Guilt and guilty feelings are two different things. Next time you are feeling "guilt," ask yourself: "Did I do something bad, wrong, mean, or illegal?" If the answer is yes, then it may be actual guilt, and you just have to make amends for it (i.e. go to jail, apologize, etc...).

If the answer is no, then those are only guilty feelings, and those feelings are on you. You can choose to continue feeling badly, or you can choose to not feel badly and let it go.

We all make mistakes.